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Feb. 25th, 2007 @ 08:52 pm
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Really chill weekend. Thursday, exchange with Sig Nu, marker party, then I met up with Ange, Annie, Pickles, John, and some of their friends for the Sublime cover band (which was AMAZING). Honestly. I got on stage at one point to sing with the band. I was so blazed that I forgot the words to Waiting for my Ruca...but it was still outrageous, ha. Friday we went to the Sparta & Mewithoutyou show, but we got there at 8:45, because we didn't know it was an early show. it ended at 9:30, but we went up for the last 45 minutes because some fellas gave us free tickets at the door. Then we went to this stellar house for a party, lots of really chill people I guess. Saturday Annie, Pickles, and I tried to go to this other show (weekend of shows, I guess) in the ice storm, but because 80 was closed non of the bands could make it, so we just went to the house we were at the night before to hangout with the people there. They ended up having another house party, and then we walked home in the ice storm, hah.
Now I have to study for a midterm that I have tomorrow in which I have not even opened my book, and write a ten page paper for basic acting (it's so intense it's ridiculous). So I best be getting that done now... I'm getting stressed out just thinking about it.... |
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Feb. 21st, 2007 @ 07:57 pm
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So for a real update, not something really obscene.
I'm really enjoying not being in crew, it's superb. Really, it is. Last night a bunch of us went out to the bars for Mardi Gras, and I finally got an excuse to wear the dress I made for the prom fashion show last spring. I got extensions a couple weeks ago, and that has been fun having thicker hair for a while...I think I'm taking them out today though.
My plans for spring break have been so scattered. I was going to visit Nickie in Florida, then my parents said they would pay for a plane ticket home, but not for my own personal vacations, so I don't really have to money to do that now. I then was going to fly home for a couple days, and then go camping in Missouri with Annie and Trav, but we decided it would be too cold there in march. THEN, I was just not going to go home at all and we were going to make it a week-long extravaganza of camping on the Gulf of Mexico in Texas. I just got news today that my mom doesn't want me going and having other people drive my car for long periods of time because of insurance reasons. Now, I think Annie Trav and I may just drive home, hang out at my house and possibly go camping for a few nights. I'm pretty excited because I wouldn't have been able to come home or see anyone till Summer if I didn't go home over spring break.
I met a boy last night, and maybe something will come of it...we'll see. I'm a little unsure on his intelligence level at this point, and I might get bored. Fast. We'll see....
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Feb. 19th, 2007 @ 04:53 am
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I can't go to bed. I've been trying for almost five hours now. I should be doing something productive. My meaning of productive does not entail five hours of facebooking. This is sick, and it NEEDS to stop. |
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Feb. 17th, 2007 @ 08:41 pm
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I'm going to a strip club tonight! |
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Feb. 16th, 2007 @ 05:15 pm
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Right before I peed in the entrance of my dorm building, I held my friend Gianna's hair so she could puke over the balcony area, and then I squatted and peed. When we woke up this morning there was a frozen pee spot and her puke all over the side of the building. We had a little too much fun last night.... |
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I peed on the side entrance to my dorm building last night.
Feb. 16th, 2007 @ 11:03 am
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so I just watched this show on HBO where they went to the streets of Atlantic City and took whores into this van and interviewed them. One of may favorites was when the one whore was talking about all her other whore friends who have been killed/ODed, and she screamed; "I'm not captain save-a-hoe!!!!"
Sad, but true story:
I was violently ill this weekend, starting Wednesday night around 2AM (so Thursday I guess...) I started puking, and I could barely move the next morning. I go to the doctors Thursday afternoon because I thought that I had the flu. I get my flu test. If I had the flu, there were drugs that they could give me that would have me back on my feet within 24 hours. I was negative. They gave me nausea medicine, and told me to take 1000mg of tylenol 4x a day. So I spend my entire weekend in bed puking and miserable when I was supposed to be going to Chicago to visit my grandparents with Annie. I get a call today saying they messed up my test, and that I really did have the flu, and it's too late to do anything, but they wanted to tell me anyways. I fucking hate student health.
I could have had an amazing weekend....
Feb. 14th, 2007 @ 12:00 am
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I have fiteen minutes before my sorority event, and I'm scrounging for things to do.
One thing I realized this morning is the fact that I miss doing something important. Or at least the feeling of doing something important. I think that's why I joined a sorority, I like it, I just don't feel accomplished by doing it. I need something to fill that.
Second, I've finally come to the age where drink specials are starting to mean something. I have no job. I'm losing money by the day, and yet I still want to have a fun time. So there, I guess I've just never had to actually look for drink specials till college because one: I couldn't order drinks, two: I didn't have to worry about money.
Architechture in Helsinki is rocking my world right now.
I have a thousand things to do by tomorrow afternoon, and the thought of valentines day terrifies me. I'm not going to get all sulky, I'm just going to get drunk. Fair enough.
I still have 10 minutes...........
I'm just trying to waste time, so I'll just stop, because one of you would probably continue on reading this crap and waste their time....
Feb. 13th, 2007 @ 05:06 pm
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It's Connor's birthday, the big 16 and all. I joined ADPi a couple weeks ago, and couldnt be happier. Everyone there is really just, themseleves, I guess. I don't think I could have joined any other one for a meer fact I might have to act in a certain manner...I don't know...I just pretty happy with my decision. Hmm....crazy weekend, not much to say here, but it was just a lot of fun, werid experiences I guess...
Kaiti and I just got back from Geoff's and then we made toasted cheese sandwiches in the microwave. Earlier today I learned how to make rice crispy treats in the microwave. We're all getting pretty good at this make-shift dorm room living eating thing.
Feb. 6th, 2007 @ 10:55 pm
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......so I joined a sorority.
Jan. 28th, 2007 @ 10:36 pm
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I just looked at the weather, and it is -1 degrees. I don't think I have ever been in that low of a temperature before literally; I've been in that wind chill though. I am not looking forward to the walk to class....
For the first time ever, I have been bored at college. I actually have time to be bored! I woke up at a leisurely 10:00, and I still have 3 hours until the start of my first class. I think it's the lack of homework at this point, but still....it's amazing. I don't think normal people get an appreciation for how much time they actually have to do things until they go through doing a sport in college, and then quit. I guess the same could go for having a ob and going through classes as well. There are so many people I've met here who get so stressed out about papers and homework, etc, and only have to deal with classes...THAT'S IT! I want to scream at them most of the time.
I still have to do my laundry and clean out some of my bags from coming back.
I don't have anything interesting to say, really, nothing has happened thus far in my second semester college experience.
Jan. 16th, 2007 @ 10:26 am
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Break has been going pretty well. My first week home was OK to say the least. I basically stayed out till 3AM, and slept till 3PM everyday. Coming down from my first finals week after all the things I took to stay awake was pretty tough. I think that week was enough to convince me I should never do coke! Awesome realizations. Now I'm pretty much my normal self. Everyone went to the Shanty last night for a party, and it was pretty nice. I mean, I really began to realize how much I miss all the people here...not that I don't think about it constantly while I'm away or anything either, just...living like it used to be. I, as usual, got sloshed and puked everywhere and made out with everyone... literally almost everyone at the party. Em's out of the shower, so we're going to go get some dinnah.
PS, we ordered matching customized sweatshirts because we're that cool.
Dec. 29th, 2006 @ 07:22 pm
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My last Final is tomorrow. I haven't started studying really, but I have all night I suppose. I've basically come to the realization that I was not as prepared for college as I would have liked mentally. The class work isn't too hard, I just kind of put my priorities in the wrong places for a while, and still am, and it's screwed me over. I wish I would have gone to more classes, and I wish I wouldn't have wasted so much time being depressed and sleeping. I should have made decisions sooner, and just worked things out a lot smoother. I'm paying for it all now. I'm not too stressed just because its all going to be over tomorrow. I just need this next month to relax, find out what's wrong with me, my life, school, etc., and just kind of go from there. Start over next term, and do everything I told myself I would this term but didn't. I want to actually try, and I want to motivation to do that so I feel accomplished. I hate feeling like I've wasted this term being terribly unhappy, unproductive, and useless. I absolutely hate that. Maybe without crew things will all change. I had my final meeting with Coach K, you know, the last regards kind of thing. It went well, I suppose. We left on good terms, and I guess all I can do is hope that it was all for the best. This girl from Dev. Camp put on four albums of pictures from that summer tonight, and it made me so nostalgic, and I just wish I could go back to that point in my life where crew was everything, and I actually wanted it. That was the last time I actually felt like I had a purpose for something, that I was aiming for something. Since then, I feel like I'm just going through the motions, and that's not good enough for me at this point in my life. I feel to lack motivation is to lack vitality, and that's something that a normal 18 year old college freshman should have. This quarter-life crisis is not a good sign. I should really start reading. It's close to 2AM here, and it kind of needs to happen at this point.
PS, have I told you I've gone nocturnal?
PPS, the weirdest/most spontaneous weekend of my life. Let me tell you about it later. Studying must be done.
Dec. 14th, 2006 @ 01:54 am
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Me: Dad, i think I have an anxiety dissorder.
Dad: Well, God has a plan for you, and whatever happens, happens. You shouldn't be stressed out over nothing.
Me: Well, I am.
Dad: Have you been drinking a lot of coffee?
Me: No, maybe once a day, but nothing like before.
Dad: Oh, well then how about pop?
Me: Dad, I think I have an anxiety dissorder, not a caffeine addiction...all I drink is skim milk!
Dad: HA, skim milk.
Me: Why are you laughing at skim milk?
Dad: I don't know.
Basically the breakdown I had to my mother ended in my dad calling me and being weirdly nice about not trying to stress me out anymore. He basically said that I should take a little credits as I can, not get a job, and relax for a while. THIS IS NOT MY FATHER. I'm still getting a job, but it's nice to know that he wouldn't think less of me if I didn't. I think I need to just for personal reasons and not being stuck in my dorm all the time/meeting new people. I think if I slacked off for too long, I would get used to it and have no motivation to do anything more...that's just how I am.
Dec. 4th, 2006 @ 02:02 pm
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I officially quit crew on Friday. I had a break-down to my mom wondering if I really made the right decision and all. I think I did. I think I'm just upset because I ended something that has been such a huge part of my life for the past five years; to cut it completely from my life all of a sudden one day like that kind of hurts. I'm sure this feeling will go away soon.
In celebration, I've been going out all weekend. I literally did not get home till 6 from the party I was at last night. Can you say nap time?
Dec. 3rd, 2006 @ 02:08 pm
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Well, I still haven't gotten anything done, but I'm being optimistic of this week. When I said anything done, I meant school-related. The reason I am feeling so much better than before is becase I got so much out of the way today. I only had one class 1:30-3:30, so I spent the whole morning getting stuff off my list done. I finaly got a parking pass (after $100 in random fines), I got my application to Starbucks (yay, money, a job, and not having my parents be on my ass all the time), and I went tanning (which I haven't done in well over 6 months...I think just that amount of psuedo sunlight helped brighten my day), and I got a listing of houses from my realitor and visited four of the homes before dinner. We really liked two of them, and things for next year are really looking up! I'm pretty excited. I'm going to have 4 other roomates, and both the houses have a spare room that we are going to make into out hookah room. Yeah, we're pretty sweet right? haha....I know I'm being lame, but I need this kind of happy post right now more for myself than anything. I still have 5 paintings, and a five page research paper that I haven't started to do by friday. aweeesssooommmeee. I really hope I get the job at Starbucks.....ahh.
Nov. 28th, 2006 @ 08:16 pm
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I need help with my life right now. I have one week left of crew, and that will be out of my life forever. I couldn't be happier...at this point. I've been having anxiety attacks all day thinking about where my life is going, and its not in a good state right now, and that kind of scares me. I feel completely incapable of doing anything. Just with the quitting crew thing, I feel like I've created so much more stress that doesn't need to happen. Like, where to come up with the extra $8000 by my next semester. I bought a new car, and I have been failing miserably at getting it a home, now a plethera of parking fines have come my way, which helps the money situation oh so much. I was sick for two weeks where I stayed in bed, and I need to make up all that work in the next two days, and I can barely stand at times because I get so nauseated and shakey just thinking about these things, adding crew partice twice a day on top of this and getting enough sleep. I can't sleep tonight, there is just too much to do, and I can't shut my head off...so it probably just wont happen. At least when I don't have crew I can medicate myself like I used to when things like this happened. I keep telling myself that if I get through this week I will be ok, that I can survive. Then there are two free weeks without crew, and just handing final stuff in. Then I'm home. For a month. My parents are already all over me about how I can't stay out till 3 and not get up till 3 the next day and just repeat this all Christmas, how I need to get a job...for a fucking month...to start saving money. How I'm not going to have free-time with my friends, and how I really need to get my act together. Now that I don't have this standard which was crew in my life anymore, I need to be a working fiend and do nothing else basically. I need a break, I want time off....CAN I HAVE A FUCKING MONTH OFF FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE!?!?!?! I just need to fall asleep and get this all figured out in the morning. Too bad I am restless and can't and all sleeping meds need 8 hours, and I have crew in 4.....baaaah. Please, just let this week be over!!!!
Nov. 27th, 2006 @ 12:46 am
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I WILL BE IN ERIE PA (MY LOVE) TOMORROW.
I need this more than anything I can think of right now.
PS, I'm quitting for good. A week after Thanksgiving break, and then nothing more.....I'm estatic.
PPS, I have friends.
Nov. 17th, 2006 @ 09:41 am
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We started 8 Hour/Week practices, and its getting a lot better. I stil haven't been tested for mono because I "got better." Better entails feeling ok, but only being able to function for 6 hours during the day because I am sleeping the other 18. Sweet right? I'm going to get tested for real tomorrow; I have absolutely no time today. I'm quitting for good. There have been too many instances in the past few weeks to make me want to stay. I'm just over it all, and thats that. I go home next Saturday! I can't think of anything I want more than to be at home with familiar faces and just...to know I'm loved somewhere. I know I'll make new friends here, and I have been, its just....not the same. My friends back home were pretty much my soul mates, and I don't know if anyone is lucky enough to have that happen to them twice in one lifetime. Certain people back home understand me better than I even understand myself, and I'm not getting anything like that out here. I just....can't wait to be back. I don't have class till 9:30, but I am already procrastinating everything I have to do for this week, and I am pretty much going to fail at life pretty soon. Only 2 weeks back after break, and then we're off for a MONTH!!! AND, because I'm quitting, I wont have to leave early to go on the training trip. I think I'm going to take all of December off and not get off the couch, just in spite of never NOT working out...literally for 3 years straight I haven't had more than a couple days of at one time. Thats sick. I'm sick, and I'm going to quit!!!!! Oh, the exhaultation!
Nov. 8th, 2006 @ 08:14 am
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So I think I have mono. I don't even know what to do with myself right now, I have never felt like this, and I've slept all day, but all I want to do is go back to bed, but I can't because I sit there and sweat, and I want to walk, but that makes me throw up, and I want to eat, but that does too, and I want people to come over to keep me company, but I'll get them sick...and I'm just in a very bad state of health and mind at the moment....baaaaah.
Oct. 30th, 2006 @ 07:20 pm
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